It is early spring.
Night mist falls.
Trees sparsely stand.
I look down the narrow street,
and write you a letter-
the candlelight scents
of roses and chocolate.
I wear a red silk gown,
wait for a pure-accented gentleman.
I don't speak his language.
I speak to the piling white sheets:
the wine we sipped,
the music we listened to,
the books we read
while rain dripped down your roof.
My insomnia will ride on the bus
that you rode twenty years ago.
I will take your seat, stare into the dark.
I will ask the driver to take me
to the Sunrise River,
where I removed your blue raincoat,
my red silk gown sliding down
like rose petals coiled in moonlight.
In your email, you mention the celebration;
dancing, singing and other activities prepare the important moment.
My fingers type the only word, "Nostalgia",
again and again from the east coast of the Pacific Ocean.
I hope to send it in no time.
Yet, the moon shines on my blue passport;
the shore on the west end is out of the reach.
Still I imagine my hands rise with a solemn oath
and the five-stars-red flag flies with my leaping heart.
Then I recognize:
Absence is an enormous pain.
The returned friends say the events
are the same, forever stunning.
Their mood is cheered up even though they notice
the sky of Toronto is always clearer. No surprise.
The gray skyline there is still dim under rows of red flags.
I pretend that is the excuse for my absence.
However, whatever it is; I wish to be
the one of the audience
who stand up for their motherland,
and applaud with sincerity.
At such moment, we don't think of bad news of daily life,
the dropping line of stocks, and the pollution index in the air;
together, we applaud and applaud.