Some thoughts
星期五 五月 23, 2008 12:38 pm
Jason learnt about earthquake from his science class. These days, he heard it a lot from the news. But he still could not imagine how tragedy it is. And I prefer not to tell him or let him see sometimes how cruel the real life is. He seems to know a little bit of death. And he always fears if I will die and leave him behind. Many times he asks me, “When will you die? I don’t want you to die.” His eyes are full of tears. I hold him and say, “I will never die.”
“Everyone will die one day.” He says.
“Then, I will die when I am ninety-nine-year old. There is a long way to go.” I try to distract him, and ask, “At that time, how old will you be?”
He calculates, and then says, “Sixty-nine.”
“See, then you are much old and you will have your family.” I smile.
Sometimes we think death is too far from us, but who knows? It may occur every minute.
So I treasure each day and try to embrace every moment. But I also prepare to donate my organs anytime when I die, thus I filled a form and on my health card, there is a sign: Donor. I want to live well when I am alive, and when I die, I want my organs to help others to live well.
I have not told Jason about this, I don’t want him to think of death.
I always encourage him to donate money or toys to his school and other events.
I want him to know that sometimes to give is much happier than to get. He sometimes doesn’t want to give out his toys since he is still fond of them. But I want him to know that sometimes we must let go.
I want him to feel their joy when others play his toys and I want him to think what he gives makes a difference. And he gets toys, books from others too.
In his age, life is full of promises and wonders.
I pray for all the children to live well and have dreams.