How much do you know about yourself?
星期四 九月 07, 2006 12:41 pm
Once I read a book, it said, strangers may know better than you know yourself.
You may disagree. But for me, true. I can talk to strangers about anything and find out they know me better.
But if I talk the same thing with people closed to me, they will be very surprise, "No, you are not, you are not like that, you are strong, luck and happy."
Sometimes what you writing reveals your inside, through these two years, I get to know myself and accept how weak I am...
True, I am not strong, not as solid as a rock...when I listen to myself, I hear a trapped bird singing.
I remember when I was in element school, I was hatred by other girls. I didn't know the reason, even for years. I wondered. But it developed my independence and my sense of distrust. I played lonely but I still maintained my happiness or pretended to be happy. And soon I forgot I was lonely. My heart was locked inside and never opened to others.
My parents didn't know that, because I was still a promising and happy girl.
I believe everyone has his own boundary and flexibility. I ,in turn, am cast to be strong and ignore other unhappiness.
I didn't have many close friends, I didn't confide to others. I thought it was useless. I learnt to forget.
Today, if you ask me who hurts me, I only know few, and I maybe forget what happened.
Lately I chatted with a friend about the book " Millionaire's mind". In the book, the author declares giving him 5 minutes, then he could know if you have the ability to be a millionaire. Because in life, there is a lot of suspicion and conflicting to block the way to be a millionaire, some people will waste their time for these, other never bother to think of them.
Me, ha, I happen to be never bother to think of rumor or gossipy. I walk to my desitination in my way not fearing others' judge. Because my heart inside few can touch.
I believe you only can be hurt by people you love and know you.
While I am waiting, I hope when my door bell is ringing, I know who you are and who I am.
