Dragon Lady and Neighbor-girl
星期二 六月 01, 2010 9:51 am
Thursday night (June 3) will be an exciting night since the 2010 Marty Awards’ winners will be announced. I have four tickets. I invited my good friend and also my English teacher Terry to join me. Today, I called him to ask him come early and stay at my house for supper. Then we all go to the Gala together. I mentioned I may need to do my hair. He laughed, “Anna, you need not worry about your image. You need not to be a dragon lady to be there. What stands out for you is your work, your poetry.” I replied, “I want to be neat in front of them. It is a formal event.” He said, “As far as I know, you always look neat. So don’t worry. Remember I said you looked like Neighbor-girl in your first chap-book cover, and the name card you put your photo on which looked dragon lady. Both are good. And now you are between. So you need no more fancy.” I laughed, “Ok, then I will save the money.”
Indeed, I seldom do my hair. I always keep it simple and straight. So what I need is to wash it, then my hair seems ok. For ten years in Canada, I only did three times. When my hair needs to cut, I call my friend who is a hairdresser and go to her house to cut for 15$. This way I save time and no trouble to make decision on what kind of style I need. Simply, no style. Anyway, so far so good.
Of course, I like to be Dragon Lady: elegant and pretty. But most time I am the Neighbor-girl: a casual and natural self. But I must confess I do want to be beautiful and lovely.
At the bar, I chatted with my colleagues. One said something in me lit up. He was not sure what exactly it was. I knew what he meant. I knew what it was. I talked with a girl friend in Regina who was single and hoped to find someone in her life. I said, “When you find something special and meaningful to you, try to enjoy and go for it, don’t worry. Your door will be open.” I know what opens my door. I know the world is beyond and make my life worthy and happy.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”